Before Sunset

During work, I watched the movie, "Before Sunset".

Celine:

"People just have an affair, or even an entire relationship, they break up and they forget. They move on like they would have changed brand of cereals.I feel I was never able to forget anyone I've been with because each person had their own specific qualities. You can never replace anyone, what is lost is lost. Each relationship, when it ends, really damages me and I never fully recover. that's why im very careful at getting involved, because it hurts too much."

I love old romance films.

The people I love

Bea Wong:

I'm gonna tell you this,
you're young and beautiful,
educated, smart and hardworking,
know your market value,
dont't waste it on someone who can't afford it,
he didn't know what he had, and certainly didn't know how to give you what you deserve,
in life, you can't choose whether you get hurt or not,
but you can choose who gets to hurt you.

Haven't been writing much because I am so packed.
I have so many things on hand now but somehow I love the feeling of being occupied.
Excited for this Saturday's fso show. Gonna see so many familiar faces that I haven't caught up with them for so long.

Charlotte's surprise proposal

Last Saturday, one of my close girlfriend got engaged!! The ring was gorgeous and all of the girls were
definitely green with envy. ;) After close to a few months planning, it was the big day for Desmond.
So glad that I was able to help with the preparations and all the white lies hahahaha.
We all had a great time at butter that night and there was alot of drinks.
Surprisingly, I was still sober after a couple of flutes of moet plus shots X.X
Some pictures taken throughout the night from my pathetic smartphone. I want to change one so badly
but my heart breaks a little when I realize I have to spend a couple of hundreds to get a new one. :(

Can't be more excited to help out with all the preparations and yes charlotte...

We will get you a hot stripper on hen's night but it's steven lim in my context, "hot". 

Ways to feel better when you're sad

Take a bath. While bathing, listen to shitty 80s glam, but make sure you keep your iPhone more than an arm’s reach away from the tub.

Eat some fruits and vegetables. Nothing like some fructose and greens to help yank the wrench out of your otherwise shitty day.

Read a book

Think of those who are worse off than you and tell yourself, “At least I’m not that guy/girl.”

Watch a TV series

Cry

Take the day off of work and get uproariously drunk during normal business hours. 

Yes, it's friday night tomorrow. 

oh pink

Right from the start
You were a thief
You stole my heart
And I your willing victim
I let you see the parts of me
That weren't all that pretty
And with every touch you fixed them

Now you've been talking in your sleep, oh, oh
Things you never say to me, oh, oh
Tell me that you've had enough
Of our love, our love

Just give me a reason
Just a little bit's enough
Just a second we're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again
It's in the stars
It's been written in the scars on our hearts
We're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again

I'm sorry I don't understand
Where all of this is coming from
I thought that we were fine
(Oh, we had everything)
Your head is running wild again
My dear we still have everythin'
And it's all in your mind
(Yeah but this is happenin')

You've been havin' real bad dreams, oh, oh
You used to lie so close to me, oh, oh
There's nothing more than empty sheets
Between our love, our love
Oh, our love, our love

Just give me a reason
Just a little bit's enough
Just a second we're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again
I never stopped
You're still written in the scars on my heart
You're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again

Oh, tear ducts and rust
I'll fix it for us
We're collecting dust
But our love's enough
You're holding it in
You're pouring a drink
No nothing is as bad as it seems
We'll come clean

Just give me a reason
Just a little bit's enough
Just a second we're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again
It's in the stars
It's been written in the scars on our hearts
That we're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again

Just give me a reason
Just a little bit's enough
Just a second we're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again
It's in the stars
It's been written in the scars on our hearts
That we're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again

Oh, we can learn to love again
Oh, we can learn to love again
Oh, oh, that we're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again

Its 10PM and I'm going to bed now.
So exhausted and its only day 1 :(

Growing up with less

One fine afternoon, I came across this website :
http://growingupwithless.sg

It documents how some families face poverty here in our country and my heart goes all out to them.
Behind all the magnificent skyscrapers, world acclaimed skypark, billion dollar garden and non-stop
night life, there are people like them facing difficulties to even consume a sufficient nutritious meal.







More videos here
Manage to extend my helping hand to these little children.
My friend and I will be helping these kids every Saturday Morning. :')
A little helps goes a long way.
Watch all the videos and you'll realized that there are many things that we take for granted.

when you can't fall asleep at night

Listen to Alt-J

Best Easter weekend

Just got back from The Script's concert and it was so damnnn good to hear them sing live.
Danny was just too darn good looking and such a sweetheart. :)
I loved all the songs they sang and it is still stuck in my head.
Although we were all sweaty because I was in the standing pen, but I enjoyed it very much.
Jay chou would be so much better because it's almost as close but with seats!!!!
Tonight was such a great night, I couldn't ask for me because it has been long since I enjoyed myself this much.
Yesterday was equally awesome because I had such a fun time at Phuture!!!
Dancing for 2-3 hours wasn't that tiring at all, cause I had so much fun with my friends :)
I wore my converse chucks with a matching dress to last through the night. Wearing sneakers to club
wasn't that bad afterall. Some girls were just trying to hard.
Few guys came up to me and said it was cute that I was rocking those sneakers. ;)

my favourite photo of the night.

CANT WAIT FOR TOMORROW!!!
Meeting my aussie friends tomorrow and it's gonna be another fun night!!
xx

Once your heart has been damaged.

You may be capable of forgiving, but the forgetting part is out of your hands. Forgiveness is nothing to scoff at though, it takes a hell of a person with a mighty generous heart to experience some type of traumatizing betrayal and accept an apology. And people can be ruthless, so it’s not a given that you’ll even receive an apology at all. It forces us to deal with the wrongdoings internally before we can move on with life. Still — as difficult as forgiving may be, it’s ultimately up to you. The forgetting however, is not.

People seem less and less thoughtful about their actions. A moment of pleasure is constantly being chosen over potential years of reliability and happiness. Then, when the flash of indulgence is over, consideration for what has been done begins. People may start to feel bad; others may just feel scared that the truth will come out. For some it will take being caught to find out, for others, their conscience forces them to confess, but that doesn’t mean it hurts any less.

So whatever happened is now carved into your brain. It has left an unpleasantly deep wound that hurts regardless or apologies, excuses or explanations. You’re officially damaged and what people fail to realize is that it’s permanent. Playing with emotions, cheating, screwing people over, breaking trust – these things are taken lightly nowadays, and I can’t fathom why. When you do any of those things to a person, you are leaving them emotionally disabled for some time. We rehabilitate and when we do eventually “get over” things, all that means is that we’ve figured out a way to walk without each step hurting. But we’re well aware that if we walk a certain way, it might tweak the previous injury. Or even worse, tear the same wound wide open.

The lasting effects are simply inevitable.  You’ve learned to get along pain free because you walk with a limp to remain comfortable — and after so long, you make a habit of it. It’s second nature to get by the way you get by, until someone comes along and makes you consider trying that old method. The technique that broke you in the first place.

It can be hard, especially if the person trying to sweep you off your feet is doing everything so freakin’ perfect. It’d almost be better if they’d just mess up or show some awful red flag so we can get out of being vulnerable early on. Happiness with a person is too good to be true — it’s unfathomable that a person is genuinely concerned over you and has no ulterior motives that’ll cut you down eventually. That’s when we realize the extend of the previous damage, and just how broken we are. At times, a previously shattered heart has absolutely no idea how to respond to genuine care and affection, which is truly unfortunate. The person or people from the past who’ve hurt you still linger, even long after they’re gone.

One time is all it takes. 

Once you’ve been damaged, you don’t fully recover, so much as you teach yourself to cope. The wounds are there, the lessons are learned, the memories are engraved, and you’ve got to decide if you want to do it all over again – or if you’re even capable of that. A damaged heart is tentative and that’s got to be clear to anyone seeking to win you over. On your own time, as you’re ready, you’ll have to drop the crutches, dip your toes in to test the waters, and, 

when the time is right, love hard as you loved before. 

-Christopher Hudspeth-
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Thought catalog has been my daily read recently. Sometimes, their words are so deep and it feels so close to your heart. Somehow, their articles are so amazing, can't put it in any way.

A blessing

On the 20th of March, my best friend gave birth to this cute little boy, Arien foo!

Never knew babies were so freaking adorable till the day I visited him!!!

I could just look at him sleep for hours and watching his lips twitching. My heart melted. :')

Thankfully, he's a really healthy baby and apparently tall. 

Everyone is going to spoil him. I can't wait till he starts to crawl and stuff, so glad that he is just a few blocks
away from my home. hehe

eyecandy

Lucas Piazon, 19 years old
Damn

Spring break

Took some time of from this little red dot and visited Taiwan for the first time ever.
Pretty much enjoyed the trip because the weather was so chilly, I didn't even perspire.
However, I am so weak in my chinese language so it was a little difficult when I had to order my meals.
The menus were all in chinese and not even simplified chinese!!Even ordering a cup of my favourite hazelnut
milk tea was hard. Sometimes I can't even understand what the locals there were saying, yes my chinese is
that weak. I just resorted to doing actions like playing charades.
Shopping was a complete disappointment. :(
The clothes that they sold almost everywhere looked like there were exactly from bugis street, either that
they were selling very "kawaii" clothes which I HATE.
All I could spend my money on was make up and beauty products. It is so much cheaper compared to here.
There were plentiful of street food which I also spent most of my money on. :P
Not sure if I gain a little weight from the excessive eating but I am keeping my fingers crossed that I did not!
Because I have a fitting this saturday for Frederick Lee!!!! Haute couture gowns baby!!
Call time for the next 2 days is 6am. :(

I left my earpiece in Taipei :'( 

Xx

Silence speaks when words can't

Carpenter & Cook

Yesterday, it was a wonderful day spent with you girls . :)

:'(

At night, it all comes back in flashes.
I don't know how someone I used to love, would do something immorally wrong. What a fool am I.

Tonight I wanna cry

its just a little too late

I was watching American Idol and Paul Jolley sang one of keith's old songs. The song was so meaningful :')


In other news, I had a fun time partying last night at avalon. Didn't bothered me that I have to wake up at 7.30am to report for work. I could survive the whole of Sunday after sleeping for only 3 hours.
I feel like a superwoman. My calves are aching so badly now.
Met Sherena for our little catch up session. Eliza was suppose to join us but her Amsterdam flight got delayed. :(
Be strong girls. Sometimes, love is about letting go.
Maybe not today, or tomorrow, or even in a year but eventually things will turn up. You will get better
and be able to turn back and say with relief, "I made it".
We still have each other. :)

Polaroids taken at Daren's 21st, before we all went crazy at avalon. I loveeeee the cake cause it's
all strawberry's with chocolate cake beneath. I had 2 slices of that awesum cake!

Had so much fun working with them. :) While they were having their breakfast at coffee bean, I was taking a power nap zzzzz Soooo tired.

 So happy that my admoire arrived today. Went home after work and I immediately fixed it up categorize my stuffs accordingly.
Tomorrow, its the first week of holidays. Finally, I do not have to wake up so early in the morning!!

ambivalence

Today, was my last paper and it went so horribly wrong. Like it was so terrible, I am so scared that
I will fail this module :( Everyone came out of the exam room shouting and cursing because the questions were SO unexpected.
Everything I memorised barely came out. :(
Worst of all was that I found out that I calculated the wrong values for my 20 mark question and I
knew the concept and how to calculate it but I just took the wrong value . :'(
I don't know what the hell was I thinking. I just pray that if I am suppose to take the supplementary paper, it
will not fall on the exact days when I already booked my accommodation and flight.
All of us were suppose to be so glad that everything is over but for me, it's a bitter sweet feeling.
Now I have all the time in the world to download new albums and watch Iris 2 which is finally out!
No byung hun this time :(

Definitely need this

After this hectic week, I'm gonna purchase one of these armoires to store allllllllllllll my stuffs including nail polishes.:)
It's retailing at $160. My mum says its a waste of money but whateva because it will be so much easier to think of what accessories to match my outfit when I'm out.
$160.. Is cheap what right? Originally retails at $213...
Sherena... I know you're reading this so u should get 1 for yourself too...
Photos from Colettemiles

I wanna smash your fears
And get drunk in off your tears
Don't you share your smile with anyone else but me
I wanna touch your heart
I wanna crash it in my hands
Make a plea, and cry
As you give up all the lies


Stuck in a real bad dream,
And that it feels so new to me
Should be in your arms, but i'm begging at your feet
It's been a real hard night
And I just hold my pillow tight
You won't love me back, no, it's not you and I

We're not lovers, but more than friends
Put our flame to every single word you ever said
No more crying, to get me through
I keep dancing til the morning with somebody new

Tonight I'm getting over you